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It's all I can do right now.....

Thu Jul 2, 2009, 8:12 AM
  • Mood: Emotional
  • Watching: FOX News
Um, I'm kind of a bundle of feelings right now. I'm feeling subdued, a bit speechless...you know what your chest feels like when you're holding your breath too long? Or when you get the breath knocked out of you? The weird knot you get in the pit of your chest? That's it...

I got a call yesterday afternoon from my youth pastor, Aaron. He proceeded to tell me that due to family problems he had to address, he was leaving his position as youth pastor.

This is so surreal to me...I mean I can't even explain it properly. This came out of nowhere. I am incredibly saddened by this news, even though I know he's not like moving away or anything. He'll still be around and we'll still keep in touch with each other, he just won't be the youth pastor anymore. And some of you might be thinking, 'It doesn't affect you that badly does it? I mean you've graduated; you're leaving anyway.' That's not completely true.

The college I'm going to is close to home, which allows me to remain a member of my church. I love my youth group like my family, and even though I'm going to college I don't plan to leave them for the women's ministry. In a way, this really shouldn't affect me so much, but it does.

It's hard for anyone to lose someone like that. I'm no exception. I've cried on and off since about 3:30 yesterday afternoon. This has hit me really hard...it's hard for all of the youth students. I talked to a lot of them last night and had to explain to a few of them that Aaron wouldn't want them to leave the youth group just because he's not the youth pastor. It does hurt me quite a bit. But what we have to understand, individually and as a youth group, is that Aaron had to make a really tough call and we need to stand by him and respect the choice he made right now. I feel that I personally need to stand up strong for the younger kids of the youth group, especially since some of them don't quite understand what's going on. I know that Aaron and even our senior pastor Jimmy are pretty much counting on me as well as a few of the older kids to step up for the younger ones. I'm standing strong right now...it's all I CAN do.

If you would, keep my youth group in your thoughts and prayers. There are some students who are taking this really hard, and I would hate to see anyone walk out because of it. It's gonna be tough, but I know we're gonna get through this. I promised myself and my youth group that I was sticking around, and I promised Aaron that I would be a better leader for them. I just pray that God will give me the strength and wisdom I need to fulfill those promises.

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  • Current Residence: middle of nowhere, Oklahoma
  • Interests: God & church, hanging out w/ my best friends, music, movies, etc......
  • Favourite movie: Transformers!!!
  • Favourite band or musician: too many to count
  • Favourite genre of music: rock, country, a little pop/hip-hop, a couple rap songs, and classical
  • Favourite artist: Charles Schulz ((The creator of Peanuts!))
  • Favourite poet or writer: Lewis Carroll ((he wrote Jabberwocky))
  • Favourite photographer: Kevin Connolly
  • MP3 player of choice: my awesome Zune
  • Shell of choice: I have this freakin cool clam shell...it's white and has purple swirled on it...naturally too!
  • Wallpaper of choice: Super Courtney To The Rescue! shot2theheart.deviantart.com/art/Super-Courtney-To-The-Rescue-68376362
  • Favourite game: Extreme Hide and Seek, the Random Game, Buzzword, the toast game, and many others.
  • Favourite cartoon character: Snoopy, Woodstock, many anime characters, Pixie & Dixie, & Speedy Gonsalez!
  • Personal Quote: .....because pointless stories are my thing.
  • Tools of the Trade: my laptop and flashdrive.....or just a notebook and mech. pencil!

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Thanks for faving my Movie megs pic :D
No problem; that piece is REALLY rad :D

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I'm a mile away from where I belong
and I'm a mile away from home.
I'm lying awake at the thought of you gone
and I'm a mile away from home.

Oh but I could never forget the guilty look in your eyes at the end...
Thank you for adding 'What We Remembered', 'Shine Brighter' and ';Pause' to your favorites! :D :glomp:
:D It's cool; I'm getting back into my ';photographic groove' lately, so I'm looking out for others' shots too. I'll be posting some of my more recent ones pretty soon.

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I'm a mile away from where I belong
and I'm a mile away from home.
I'm lying awake at the thought of you gone
and I'm a mile away from home.

Oh but I could never forget the guilty look in your eyes at the end...
I'll watch for them. ^-^
Your gallery is amazing :star:

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Hey thanks! I appreciate that:D

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I'm a mile away from where I belong
and I'm a mile away from home.
I'm lying awake at the thought of you gone
and I'm a mile away from home.

Oh but I could never forget the guilty look in your eyes at the end...
thank you so much for adding
my FLOWER wall to your faves.

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:) You're very welcome.

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I'm a mile away from where I belong
and I'm a mile away from home.
I'm lying awake at the thought of you gone
and I'm a mile away from home.

Oh but I could never forget the guilty look in your eyes at the end...

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